Welcome to December

I'm going crazy. I'm going absolutely crazy. I'm out of sorts. I want to be in England. I'm feeling more and more like I fit in less and less. I feel like I'm bursting. I'm dwelling on things I shouldn't dwell on. I feel like everything's going to come caving in. I don't want to be here. I can't figure any of this out.
Every year. Every year at this time.
"I think there's something wrong with me...I like getting presents, sending cards, decorating trees, and all that. But I always end up feeling sad." - Charlie Brown

And I'm caught off guard every year. I don't understand. But I don't like it.

Heathens

I like the sound of this song. One day I decided that I should probably listen to the lyrics because sometimes I like the sound of songs and then realize what the words are or the meaning is and it's not good.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zcgie8jcvH4
I like this song.
Christians should listen to it before ministering to those outside the church.
"All my friends are heathens, take it slow. Wait for them to ask you who you know. Please don't make any sudden moves. You don't know the half of the abuse."
Don't bang on in throwing Jesus at people. Minister to them, love them, feed them, listen to them. They'll notice. And they'll ask why. And then we can share. We don't know where people are coming from. We don't know what their experience with the church is like, what their experience with Christians is like. Many people have been hurt badly by those claiming to follow Jesus. We need to show them who Jesus is and go from there. "They say they can smell your intentions."
Probably not at all what Twenty-One Pilots had in mind when they wrote this. I purposely have not watched the official video, as it's associated with "Suicide Squad." But that is what I hear when I listen to the song. It's a reminder to minister, knowing that if and when we do, people will notice, and people will ask, and we can share.