Just a thought

I'm wondering if I need to check out a big church. I need involvement, I need opportunities to meet people. And while I like small churches and have always felt like I get lost in a big one, maybe I need to try something different. Maybe I'm grown-up enough now, and desperate enough, that I'll talk to people. Something needs to change, because right now I'm going nowhere (literally and figuratively). Small churches have not been working. Maybe it's time to try a big one again. I don't know. 
When you don't like something and get out of the habit of it, it's so hard to get back to it.

So last night...

I knew my Doctor was in danger, but he wasn't in my time or space. I was freaking out about it, and an acquaintance/friend asked me what was going on. I told him, because somehow I knew he'd understand. He dangled a key in front of me.
'For the Tardis? But it doesn't matter, because the Tardis is with the Doctor!' 
'I don't know if this will still work, but we can try it.' And he brought me over to a very old Tardis, which was just the frame and top and bottom.
'We can try it, but I can't guarantee anything. We might get stuck out there somewhere, we might fly out and die. I have no idea. But we can try it.' Of course I agreed, and amazingly enough it worked. 
We landed in a dark room that was lit from outside or below or fire or something, so there was a bright orange glow. Someone was holding the Doctor with his arms behind his back. 'How did you get here?' the Doctor asked. 'Get out of here! Go!'
'That convertible Tardis, with it's sides down.'
'That can't possibly work!'
'It did! Who cares?!' [By now acquaintance/friend guy had disappeared.]
And then there was something and we were trying to get him out of there and there was running and he said something about how I needed to get out of there because I was in my own timeline and it would be a disaster. 'Well, what about you?!' "I've already seen you, so it's too late, and I know how this works anyway, so it's not going to blow my mind. Now go!' And then he got captured again, and was tied to a railing, again with his hands behind his back.
'I'm not leaving you!' I yelled.
'GO!!'
I finally knew I had to listen to him, and knew he would get out of it because I knew him in my current timeline, so as awful as I felt, I was going to head back to my wall-less Tardis. But before I did I leaned in to kiss him.
'NO!!!' he roared. 'Don't touch me!!! You're in the wrong timeline! You have to get out NOW!!!' 
And so I turned to leave. 
And instead woke up.