not seeing it

a friend from church, jeanie, has someone she wants to set me up with. i said okay, and she talked to him and he said okay, too. the nice thing is that this is going to happen in a non-threatening way - a game night with a few other people (who won't know what's going on cuz that would be awkward). with my weekends being what they are and Christmas coming up, it won't happen til january, but that's fine.
my problem is that i can't see what on earth she could have told him about me that would make him agree to meet me. what on earth could she say about me that would be appealing? 'she's a cynical, perpetually negative, opinionated, anal hermit?' 'she has pretty eyes, but other than that she's just a girl with bad skin, thinning hair, freakishly skinny wrists, no boobs, and uneven collar bones?' 'she's 30, works in her high school job, lives with her parents, and has no ambition or ministry to speak of?' 'she hates animals and doesn't want children?' i mean maybe if you get to know me you can see that i have a sense of humor, but i wouldn't call me funny. if you like nerdiness, i'm all for lotr, hp, and the big bang theory, but with my dislike of star wars, star trek, and comic books, i wouldn't describe me as a nerd per se, and i'm not athletic or artsy. yes, if you get to know me, you can see that i have interests, but i have no interests worth mentioning to a stranger.
i honestly can't see what she could've said to make him interested. it's depressing.

pt. 2

Carl Philip Edmund Bertil, I have no idea if you are because boys always look the same. So basically this post is just gratuitous.

Madeleine Thérèse Amelie Josephine, you are an outfit repeater!

i spose if i want new comments i have to write something new

i just can't think of anything. except that i want a blizzard. but that goes without saying. i always want a blizzard.

i'm working 8 days in a row

plato's not going to happen. the chuck comic book will, though, i'm sure. :)

and in light of that...

I am thankful for Hobbitsister because without her I never would have run in downtown Minneapolis in matching jammie pants with anyone.

I am thankful for Chelleybutton because without her I never would have had a 33 hour slumber party.

I am thankful for Honormommy because I'm glad I'm not the only one to have worn pantyhose in the last 20 years.

I am thankful for Kimberly because she still refers to me as HRH.

I am thankful for Busymommy because she likes Kevin Spacey.

I am thankful for Mary because she got me hooked on 'Chuck.' And Zachary Levi. And John Casey. (Dang it, can't even get through this list without showing that I'm a hussy.)

I am thankful for Autoemlinda (even though she never comes around anymore) because it's super cool to know someone who knows how to juggle, fence, and ride a unicycle. It's like she's the Intersect 3.0.

thankfulness - 1st grade style (selections from the Pioneer Press)

"I am thankful for me because I am really nice and I help my sister." - Lance Phillipy

"I am thankful for LEGOs because I can build anything. I will have my LEGOs forever. Thank you, Mr. Ole Kirk Christiansen for inventing LEGOs." - Roan Hickey

"I am thankful for my frog becuase he helps me calm down when I get hurt." - Benjamin Kuncel

"I am thankful for the world because it is really important to the universe." - Erin Knutson

"I'm thankful every day. I'm thankful for presents and treats, turkey dinner, cakes and all the things. And Bingo, if you celebrate Bingo." - Maria Williams

"I am thankful for Target." - Rex

"I am thankful for soccer. Me and my dad play soccer. I get a goal when my dad is the goalie." - Khalia King

"I love music because it makes me dance even if I'm not good at it." - Matthew Osuna Senn

"I am thankful for the Indians because if the Indians were not here, then we would not have Thanksgiving. Go, Indians!" - Sophia Grisby

"I am thankful for people because the world won't be blank." - Kahlil Linden

"I am thankful for my mom. She gives me the cereal so I don't have to reach so high." - Henry Walker

"I am thankful for my toilet because it is a good flusher." - Colin Conway

"I am thankful for laundry detergent so everyone smells good in the world." - Thomas Mooney

"I am thankful for my first-grade teacher becuase she is humorous (we just learned that word)." - Timothy Frazier

"I am thankful for first grade because I'm becoming a genius." - Bradley Klemz

and the award for "if everyone thought this way there would be no wars":
"I am thankful for all the people of the world because they sometimes become my friends." - Jakob Linscheid

and the one that made me sad:
"I am thankful for my sister Brynn because if I did not have her, then I would not get any hugs." - Lauren
Oh, baby, I would give you hugs!

once upon a time...

i used to get a week off for thanksgiving. and two weeks for Christmas. i miss that.

i wish i was reading a compelling novel

but i'm not. i'm reading plato's 'the republic.' here i have a relaxing sunday afternoon when i could sit and read, and for some reason, i just don't feel like devouring plato.

hm...will i or won't i

sleep tonight? yesterday i took a 2 1/2 hour nap, so i didn't go to bed til 1:45am. i then got up at 12:45pm. and took a nap at 2:15pm. and got up at 4:45pm. crazily enough i'm kind of sleepy right now, but i'm not quite sure how sound my sleep will be. i'll just have to see i guess. (after my laundry gets done so i can put sheets on my bed, that is.)

Movie Review: "Four Brothers"

It's not that often that you sit there after a movie and think, "That was a good movie. That was a good movie. That was a really good movie." I mean, sure, you say you watched a good movie after watching "The Importance of Being Earnest" or "Con-Air," but to find one that makes you just sit there and think, "Wow," doesn't happen all that often.
This movie does that. It's the story of four (adopted) brothers, whose mother is killed in a convenience store hold-up. They're not exactly the law-abiding citizen types, so when they come home after she dies, it's not just for the funeral. It's to find whoever did it and wipe them off the face of the earth, too.
It was stylized to be a western set in Detroit, and they capture that well. The script is well-written, not over-done (with part of the believability stemming from giving the actors a little bit of freedom to raz each other). The actors do an amazing job being convincing as brothers, and just plain give great performances in general.
Provided you can get past the horrible language and the violence, I highly recommend it. It has a great story, with great movie-making overall.

why yes, yes i did end up doing some retail therapy

with a shirt custom-designed for little old me

i simply couldn't resist

what's with me having tummy aches lately?

i'm not asking to keep up with the joneses, just inflation

none of us at work have gotten raises in four years. i've been understanding, knowing i have to be thankful to have a job, but in the last month or two, while watching grocery prices soar, it's been very, very disheartening.

so last night...

i was at a camp for some kind of church thing. i then walked into the bathroom in the main building, had a baby, took a shower, threw on my regular jeans and a twins hoodie, and headed back out for our picnic. on the way it crossed my mind that i should probably show the baby to the father before showing him off to other people, so i went to the basement dining room where the black church was setting up for their big dinner and asked for denard. he was out helping someone with something. i didn't want to tell the people why i wanted him, because i didn't think it was fair to out him with our sin, so i decided i'd just show him the baby later, and went on my merry way.

[photo by erinnagel]

the internet frustrates me

i almost cried tonight as i all but stomped my foot at GOD not wanting to pray. i asked HIM why i had to and asked HIM if i could please not. HE assured me that it was my choice in that same way a parent does where you have to make the right decision. i've never liked that tactic, but it usually does work.

i don't want to be this person. guess i better work at that.

"Allow me a small break. Like those people with idle minds who entertain themselves with daydreams when they are out for a walk on their own. People like this, I believe, don't bother to find out how something they want can happen. That's something they forget about, to save themselves the trouble of thinking about what is feasible or otherwise. They assume that what they want can be had easily, and go straight on to planning the future, and enjoying the rehearsal of the things they are going to do once they have got what they want, so making an already lazy mind even lazier." - The Republic

ouch

"May YOUR HOLY SPIRIT work in YOUR people a deep conviction of the sin of restraining prayer, of the sloth and unbelief and selfishness that is the cause of it, and of YOUR loving desire to pour out the SPIRIT of prayer in answer to their petitions - for YOUR Name's sake. Amen"
- from a prayer by Andrew Murray

People don't write like this anymore

From my great-grandfather to his future wife's brother, on the occassion of the future brother-in-law's marriage [the brother-in-law sent it in turn when my great-grandpa and great-grandma got married]:

Waverly, Minn
June 1911
My Dear Friend,
As you have entered the enviable state of wedlock, I sincerely congratulate you upon this desirable change; for in your choice of a partner you have given evidence of the possession of a sound judgment, and much good taste.
If my beneficient wishes were the only requisite to ensure your happiness in the married state, you would never have occassion to regret the step you have recently taken; for there is no one whom I more ardently desire to see surrounded with all the blessings of this life.
Have the kindness to present my respectful compliments to Mrs. Peterson, and believe me ever to remain,
Your sincere well-wisher and friend,
A.P. Newman

vacation - bobo

i like goose cousin's family. the last few years, though, they've been in tacoma, so i haven't seen too much of them. when i was there on my vacation, i saw them more than i had in a long time, and seeing as i was the only one out there, i actually got to spend time with them, as opposed to being in different rooms in a house full of relatives for holidays or birthdays.
it's been fun to see them grow up. the duck (goose cousin's 19-year-old) has grown from a sneaky little handful to a creative, artistic young man. the elf (15), has always been one to go with the flow, and he's still laid back and fun. cinderella (8) is the sweetest little girl you could ask for. i love them all.

and then there's bobo, goose cousin's 17-year-old. he was the other half (and probably the wilder) of the wild duo that were goose cousin's first two when they were little. one of my favorite things about him then was when he got in trouble and he would scowl and say, 'don't say bad words to me.' i still quote that. he was a handful. but we always said that if that energy could be channeled, he'd turn out alright.

and he did. being his friend on facebook this last year or two i've gotten to see more of what he's up to, which has been nice. and then, when i was out there for a week, bobo was around a lot. he likes being with family (at 17! crazy, i know), so he came around more than the other boys.

one of the things i saw is that he notices things. the fabric on the ceiling of goose cousin's van sags a bit, so as we were on our way to seattle, bobo took the pin that was holding it up above his head, and put it in above mine. having not shaved, i was wearing pants that day and it was hot, so i was way hot, and he offered me a shirt he had in his backpack that he thought would be cooler. that day i decided to buy a mariners shirt for when we went to the game on monday, but didn't find one, so on monday he gave me a mariners shirt he had that didn't fit him. lots of little things like that.

i might see a touch of my brother in him. school isn't easy for him, but he likes to play sports and work with his hands. he's not as reclusive as my brother (to put it nicely), but i don't know, there's something about his bearing. and of course, bobo loves baseball so we automatcially have a bond there.

and so, seeing as i don't have a nephew, i adopted him as mine. what that means practically, i have no idea, seeing as he lives far away and he's already so old, but i like that kid, so i decided to claim him.

and now i think that's the end of my vacation posts (over a month later). told ya i had a good time.

the wild game tonight

11 guys in the penalty boxes at once tonight. they ran out of room to sit. now that's what i call a hockey game.

oh, but while the wild's song says, 'the game's in our blood, and our blood's in the game!' it actually wasn't. the blood that we saw was gushing from a woman's head after she had been hit in the head with a puck which caused a huge gash and, it appeared, a concussion. one of our guys got a penalty at that point for delay of game. sorry, but in that circumstance, even if it had been one of the bad guys, i don't think a player should get two minutes. i didn't see all that happened cuz i was watching the lady (she was in our section), but it may have been the guy who hit that puck. i really don't think that should count.

the rest of mine and chelley's casey conversation

[after i said i have a crush on casey]
chelley: i can't blame you ;)
chelley: plus, he's a guy ;)...
chelley:  which likely makes him attractive to you ;)
me: and what does that mean? :P...
chelley: haha, i knew it was only a matter of time ;)

sad. she knows me so well.

alright fine. i'll admit it. it's not just chuck.

i also have a wee crush on one john casey

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ByDhS6uPO8g

i want to do some retail therapy

but i have no idea how to guess sizes.
http://www.thenerdmachine.com/women/womens-shirts/womens-classic-black/
plus also they'll probably have some holiday sale, so i really should wait. and i've wanted it for awhile, so i spose a little more waiting doesn't hurt.

vacation day 9

last day. i packed in the morning, we had breakfast, then we took off for point defiance. i had no idea what that was. turns out, i think it was my favorite thing. sadly we only had a couple hours there, though.

we went through the rose garden (where i climbed a tree!) and the japanese garden there, then took off for the woods. absolutely gorgeous. i couldn't decide if i was in the forest in buckland or in fangorn, but i knew i was someplace special with old trees, and hills you climb by holding onto roots. i now have to go back to tacoma just to spend time there. there are walking trails and a zoo that i missed.

after that we grabbed a quick bite at a buffalo restaurant, where i got a bison taco salad, which was very good, but very huge, and very spicy so i almost died. but worth it cuz it was yummy. then it was time to head for the airport and go home. i was glad i would have two days off before i went back to work to recover (we had had a busy week!), but so sad to be leaving already. it was a great vacation.

it's about that time again

thinking it's time to ban myself from chick flicks.
also, chuck.

ugh

i have a post written on my last day of vacation, but it won't let me upload pictures. grr...

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i love that kid

the thoughts in my head are dizzying right now, in large part because none of them are complete. my brain is swirling, and i'm exhausted. there's nothing particularly wrong, i just feel like there's something not right. i can't quite place my finger on what it is, though, and none of my thoughts are finishing themselves, so i feel like i'll never figure it out.
and that's all i have to say on that, i guess.