the story as to why i chose the verse i did for today's verse

today we had a meeting at work, in which we learned that our offices may be moving. last week they were talking remodeling, so this is kind of sudden. it's understandable, though, as our offices are downtown st. paul, so i'm sure not the cheapest. neither is parking. parking is currently costing the school over $70,000/year. which means that they're cutting that out after school ends whether we stay at this location or not. which means we'll be having to pay for parking. which will be about $1700/year. which stinks. so depending on where we go, i guess i'm happy for the move. though this does mean that we'll be losing our lunch break walks in the winter, as right now we can walk in the skyways. that just sounds way too sedentary. also, in losing the skyways, i lose the chocolate shop man who i have fallen in love with. they need to tell me if we're going somewhere with free parking so that if we do i can blow all my parking money on trips to the chocolate shop before that.
that's not the big thing, though.
the big things are that because i don't know where we'll be, and because i may have essentially gotten a $1700 pay cut, i can't move out this summer, which i was hoping to do so i wouldn't kill my father. so please pray that it's not too hard for me to tolerate him when i'm home with him all day for a couple months (my mother some, too, but mostly my dad).
and as for the immediate - as of a week ago, thing 5 was going to get an assistant. i don't know if that's still the plan because they were talking about budget cut-backs, but i had been offered the position. i told them that if i could get her to swear in blood that she wouldn't ever leave and only have babies in the summer, i'd do it, but that i'd be scared of what would replace her if she left. she and i work so well together, but i don't want to work with (and kind of under) someone i can't get along with. at least if angie were to ever leave, i can be pretty independent from the other registrar. now, though, i'm wondering what they're going to do. will they still be hiring an assistant? will they maybe hire an assistant but get rid of a registrar? what's better job security? last thursday at my year-end eval they told me i could have through this week to decide because they'll be wanting to post one or the other job next week. but the board meeting that was deciding all this was thursday night, so i don't know if things have changed. in my eval i told them that we have down time and that if they're taking some of the work that angie and i do for thing 5 away from us to have her assistant do it, we'd like to have more to do during those times. so basically i told them we're not busy enough. 
all this to say that in the next couple days i need to decide which job i want, the main factors being job security and if i'd get along with whomever may someday replace thing 5. prayers would be much appreciated.

so wednesday night...

i sometimes was and sometimes was watching a 13-year-old jewish girl in germany in about 1939. my 8-year-oldish sister and i, as well as a 6-year-oldish girl we picked up along the way (who i believe was not jewish but had some sort of physical disability, though i never got a solid answer as to what it was) were running from the nazis. [some day i'm hoping my dreams will come up with something new, but, you know, you take what you can get.]
we were running through a city with no street lamps in the dark of night, then managed to get into some underground tunnels and were running there. it was dark and the ceiling was dripping and the floor was slippery. when we finally got out it was into some school-type assembly in a huge auditorium, and the spotlight turned on me like it was my turn to speak. and so i started speaking french, so that they'd think i was a misplaced french girl, not a jew. it held them back for a little bit; just enough for me to scope out the nearest exit and figure out how to get the younger girls out with me. as the germans sat there looking at me, i grabbed the girls and dragged them out a door that was just off the stage...
and we ran to a train that was just outside the door. that was engineered by some mexican guy. and was actually a kiddie-ride-sized fisher price little people train. as i tried to maneuver the little girls in, which of course is easier to do through the windows than through the doors of a little people train, but is actually still awkward and difficult when you're trying to do this with actual little people, game of thrones sword guy from work came rushing out of the auditorium to capture us. however, as i was struggling to get the girls up into the train, i realized that he had stopped a ways away from us. he had come out to make the nazis think that he was getting us, so no one else had to, so that we could get away. as the train pulled away, i thanked him, yelling, 'love you, gotsguy!' so basically i thanked him by blowing his cover, but you know. he yelled back that he loved me, so apparently he managed to quickly resign himself to his death for my and the little girls' sakes.
as we headed east into france (not sure how that worked, but whatevs) i realized we had no money for food or shelter when we got there. so just over the border, close to sunset, the train let us off at an orange grove, where i could work for a time picking oranges in order to earn some money, and hopefully then everything turned out okay.

update

apparently i was wrong, and they went ahead and started me on the new drug now. took my first one today. so yeah. that's that.

true story

this afternoon i caught myself leaning my elbow on my desk, resting my head in my hand and sighing, then reaching for the dark chocolate as i listened to this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0oUUG4LpQI0

darn computer age

someone chipped the paint on my car in the parking garage yesterday. i was ticked and unthinking and left a note telling them to please in the future not park so close to someone as had they done that they would have avoided damaging my car. and then i left my number. so dumb. i wanted to go back and take it off their car, but i was on my way to that appt and didn't have time. my big fear was what would i say if they call. but then when i mentioned it to thing 5 today, she said, 'what were you thinking?! they can look you up now and do who knows what!'
thank you for scaring me to death.

i have to go see the vampires tomorrow

i've been on antibiotics for acne for a few years now. i recently tried going off it, but broke out something fierce, so went back in to the dermatologist last week. the doctor i had been going to is on leave, so i had someone else. she said she doesn't like to have people on antibiotics for that long, which i understand, so she's going to put me back on it long enough to clear me up, but then switch me to a pill to balance hormones. when she said that, i immediately 'but'ed her. last time i was on a hormone pill it was birth control to regulate my period and my depression was exacerbated to the point that i was suicidal and no longer believed in God. she said, however, that birth control deals with our female hormones and this deals with our male hormones. she's never had a patient complain of depression symptoms, and hasn't really heard of others running into that.
i know i've been healed of depression, so i'm not really worried, but as this is a hormone-altering thing, it is something i have to be mindful of. provided the tests are all fine (which, why wouldn't they be?), i'll be switching meds in a couple months. so yeah, i don't know if i'm really asking for prayer about it, but i'm just throwing it out there, as it's something i'm thinking about.

two superficial easter thoughts

1) after not wearing a skirt in i don't know how long, i sure looked like a lot of leg in my easter dress today
2) after not wearing a skirt in i don't know how long, i apparently forgot how to shave my legs, as i'm still bleeding from chopping off one of my knees yesterday

just another day at work

we're getting a new online application program for our school. to figure out any glitches, we were asked to fill out applications for our children (or our made up children) to see if anything came up. and so, i got to work filling it out for soon-to-be-6th grader neville junior (i had used frodo drogoson on something else [frodo's dad's name was drogo, btw]). it actually was quite good that i did, as we discovered that you're not able to fill it out if your child started school outside of the united states, or if your child's most recent school is outside of the u.s. we also worked out what to do about juniors (stick the jr. in the last name box). after i finished with little neville's, i asked the one in charge if this system works for siblings, as our current system won't allow students to have the same email address, which ordinarily is fine, but sometimes doesn't work if a family has a family email address. 'oh, i don't know. fill out an app for your other kid.' 
and so i added soon-to-be-8th grader alice (who goes by lissy). she has brown hair and dark blue eyes, freckles, and a huge smile, complete with braces. i know because our school requires pictures, so i googled one (little neville looks just like his daddy, so that was easy enough). i also had to write essays by each of them, stating why they want to take online classes. one of little neville's reasons was that sometimes kids don't understand when other kids are different [ie. wizards] and one of lissy's reasons was that she loves animals [ie. magical creatures] and can take classes about them during the day if she's able to do her other school work at her convenience. (lissy's actually best at charms, but what 12-year-old girl doesn't love unicorns?) they were very careful to adhere to the statute of secrecy.
as i went to tell the person in charge that it worked to enroll siblings she said, 'so you've been in england, why are you here now?' my husband neville has time off from teaching to study north american plant-life, of course. it was only supposed to be a year, but professor sprout kindly agreed to come back and teach for two (did i mention alice's middle name is pamona?) when she saw how hard it was for neville to decide where to go to study in his one year. we'll be traveling with the seasons, spending a total of one year in northern states and one in the south.

angie was making fun of me for how much thought i was putting into this and how much fun i was having with it. i turned and looked at her. 'this from the person who is currently making a birth certificate for her daughter and creating adoption papers.' :)