back to the Oscars later

it's strange to think that had one person not vanished from my life, my life could've been completely different. i would've married him. i very well could've had kids (as i was young and hadn't made up my mind against them yet). i may have moved to a podunk town in iowa. who knows if i would've had a job and what that job would've been. 
i'm not feeling sad about it. it's just a strange thought, like an alternate universe. i've seen 'it's a wonderful life' enough times to know that one life makes a difference, but it's just strange to think about it in my own life.