so i was thinking this afternoon...
maybe part of the reason i get lonely and depressed about this time of year is that it's Christmas card season. by writing Christmas cards, i'm thinking about all the people i'm not sending cards to anymore because we've lost touch, and all the people i know won't be sending them to me for some reason or other. i notice that i'm crossing off more names than i'm adding. as i write my nice little form letter, i see that i'm not moving forward in my life. i'm just curling up in a pathetic little ball. i see that the next year holds no promise of that changing.
i think cards are a big part of the problem. if you'll notice, it's not the holiday season in general. right after thanksgiving i'm fine. then the 4th-14th of december hits and i'm lonely and depressed. then Christmas hits full force and i'm fine.
i'm already halfway through them this year, so i'll finish, but i don't know if i'll do them next year. they're kind of making me miserable.
i think cards are a big part of the problem. if you'll notice, it's not the holiday season in general. right after thanksgiving i'm fine. then the 4th-14th of december hits and i'm lonely and depressed. then Christmas hits full force and i'm fine.
i'm already halfway through them this year, so i'll finish, but i don't know if i'll do them next year. they're kind of making me miserable.
posted by melilotnfosco | 7:32 PM
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and don't be all 'oh we love you' and 'oh next year might hold amazing things for you' at me. that'll just annoy me.
:( I tend to feel more lonely around the holidays too. And I don't really want to send more Christmas cards b/c that would cost more and they're a pain, but I understand the reason behind it for you. I also think it can be kind of discouraging to get a bunch of form letters that talk about all the wonderful things that happened to other people or that they did this year. I don't send them b/c I have little to say, and also b/c I kind of don't like them for that reason. I know, that's terrible, but it's true for me. I guess I figure I find that information out in other ways if it's somebody I really care about. (No offense to people who do it though! It just means you have more to write and more people to write it to than I do!)
:) My letter this year is about how crappy of a year it's been! I've gotten tired of explaining how I'm doing to everyone, so I just wrote everyone a letter! :)
Christmas cards are annoying and sad but I do love to get them, so monkey see monkey do.
Does everyone do massive Christmas card runs or is it mostly a churched Christians thing to do?
I don't think sending mass cards/letters is a churchy thing at all. And I'm the minority here, because I like them, even the annoying ones.
But I do get your point, Mel. My list is shorter this year than in the past, and that's largely due to things that still hurt. So it's hard to look at that short list, even if it IS cheaper and easier to send to fewer people. It reminds me of things that I try to forget about on a day-to-day basis b/c it hurts too much.
Chelley, I'm sending you a card AND a letter. And it will be cheesy. But not braggy. (Because, really, the kid is the only thing to talk about and much as I love her, that depresses me about my own life a bit.) Anyway, hopefully mine is not the worst form letter you've ever seen. You'll have to let me know how bad it is. :)
P.S. I think that's a really good insight into your feelings, Mel. Good job getting to the root of the issue.
I'm being totally serious. Often it's easy to look at the symptom and attribute it to a larger or general situation, when really, the issue is deeper and more specific.
Haha, Kimberly. And sorry. :(
Photo, I think I'm actually in the minority. Most people I talk to like to write and/or receive form letters. And I'll look forward to seeing yours, but I also bet I'll already know most of the things in it (because I care more about you & so try to keep in touch with you:). And it's not as personal as writing something specifically targeted toward me. Like mentioning a capella or something. ;) I know, I'm such a dork. :)
I don't think form letters are just from church people either. And I also see a lot more photo Christmas cards nowadays. I'm feeling more and more like the minority! No picture cards to send and no form letters to send! Oh, well. I'll keep sending the ones I buy in a box from a store (I may tend to shy away from change, you know;), and people can choose to like them or not. ;)
As for the disappointment of the list getting shorter and what it represents and all that, I know it might not be that helpful for some, but it helps me to think that this life isn't all there is. I know I've screwed up a lot and things have gone wrong and relationships broken (not all my fault, of course, but much of it is!;). But it's very comforting to know that this isn't all there is. It's pretty amazing that I'll get to see many of those people I've lost touch with again in Heaven. :) And there we'll finally get it right, right? :)
as for people not sending to you, i think fewer people are sending cards at all.
and my letters always go "enrique is still working here, and i'm still working here (job security - thank you Jesus!), and we're still doing this and that". that's why this year i figured we had nothing new to say, so we went with the favorite things format instead.
I got yours, HS! Very cute. :) (And I knew some of the things already, which I think is cool!:)
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