thanksgiving break
i don't know that it's good that i have five days off right now. changes at work have me all upset (way more than they should), and now i'm just sitting at home for a few of these days with it at the back of my mind non-stop. it's already been weighing on me for six days; i need to move on and experience the new normal. i worked from home last night and today just to keep my brain occupied. not quite sure if that made it better or worse, because i just want to commiserate with my co-workers, and of course they haven't been working, except angie some last night which made me both feel better and feel more isolated.
all this to say that prayers would be appreciated. the big change is that our best administrator left as of yesterday (thus the attempt at a giant farewell cookie), which makes us all nervous about our school, as we've already dropped 100 students a year since my old boss/pastor's wife left. i'm not dwelling on the if i'll have a job part too much - this same administrator told thing 5 and me awhile ago as a friend that he figured the school has less than five years, so that's not a new thought (though a more real one when your best guy is gone) - however it is going to change the atmosphere. he's such a nice and funny guy and such a good leader. the day he told us he was leaving, one of the teachers told me that she was the first one at work that day and when she saw the email and was all alone she just wanted to walk out and say she was sick. we all thought we deserved a bereavement day. they should've just given it to us. none of us did anything that day anyway.
i think another reason it's getting to me so much is that he and game of thrones sword guy are good friends and shared an office last year (with thing 5) and he was gotsg's supervisor and they worked together a lot, and him leaving is like the final nail in gotsg's leaving coffin. and i miss gotsg so often. and now this is making that that much worse. it feels like the only people i have left are my boom boom girls, who are most important and who i think will stick with the school til the end, but that just means that if one more person i care about leaves, it all will be over. (wow - i hadn't thought of that last thought until just now - another instance of a blog being therapy.)
and so i guess that sums up my thoughts this thanksgiving break.
all this to say that prayers would be appreciated. the big change is that our best administrator left as of yesterday (thus the attempt at a giant farewell cookie), which makes us all nervous about our school, as we've already dropped 100 students a year since my old boss/pastor's wife left. i'm not dwelling on the if i'll have a job part too much - this same administrator told thing 5 and me awhile ago as a friend that he figured the school has less than five years, so that's not a new thought (though a more real one when your best guy is gone) - however it is going to change the atmosphere. he's such a nice and funny guy and such a good leader. the day he told us he was leaving, one of the teachers told me that she was the first one at work that day and when she saw the email and was all alone she just wanted to walk out and say she was sick. we all thought we deserved a bereavement day. they should've just given it to us. none of us did anything that day anyway.
i think another reason it's getting to me so much is that he and game of thrones sword guy are good friends and shared an office last year (with thing 5) and he was gotsg's supervisor and they worked together a lot, and him leaving is like the final nail in gotsg's leaving coffin. and i miss gotsg so often. and now this is making that that much worse. it feels like the only people i have left are my boom boom girls, who are most important and who i think will stick with the school til the end, but that just means that if one more person i care about leaves, it all will be over. (wow - i hadn't thought of that last thought until just now - another instance of a blog being therapy.)
and so i guess that sums up my thoughts this thanksgiving break.
posted by melilotnfosco | 11:21 PM
2 Comments:
:/ God will provide, just like He did this job in the first place. But that really stinks, and I will keep you and the girls in my prayers. If you need a distraction over your 5 days off, you can always try me! Granted, I think I'm a bit more busy than usual this time around. But if not, I'd love to be your distraction! ;)
thank you :)
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