my prayer retreat

not what it's been in the past. i felt no connection to GOD whatsoever. the first evening and following day, i neither prayed, nor read the Bible, nor just sat enjoying GOD's creation either on the trails or on my porch. i had brought a book by thomas merton and the catechism with me, so i read those just for something to do. mostly i felt nothing, not even frustration of not feeling anything. i suppose a bit of annoyance that i was paying for it, but that's all. that night, yes, i prayed for all the requests that had been sent my direction, and i did again the next night, and that was good. and between that second full day and my final morning there i read the book of luke (though i finished with a bit of a rush, not really meditating on it at all, because i wanted to finish before i left). that was all. i did, however, at the end there feel like GOD was telling me not to go back until HE tells me to; that i had needed it in the past, but don't right now, and i shouldn't force it.
so basically that was that.