maintenance

just like i'm concerned that my back is going to get out of whack because insurance won't pay for chiropractic maintenance which means it will get really bad before i go again and then i'll need more appointments anyway, i'm noticing that skipping small group because i think i'm fine and don't need my twelve-step isn't the best idea. yes, i'm fine for now, but i've skipped group for a month, and someone told me the other day that i sound unhappy (even though things are really good and i'm not unhappy, i apparently am sounding that way). i'm winning my battles in other areas, but i'm noticing that there are more of them and the assaults are stronger. yes, i'm fine for now, but do i really want to let it get to the point where i'm not? i know i won't deal with depression again, but do i want to let it perhaps get to the point where i doubt that? do i want to give in in other areas? i need to go to group this week. some maintenance needs to start happening again.