i'd spoiler alert this, but you've all read deathly hallows
too many feelings in the last couple days. i need the weekend to come. i have this terrible feeling i'm going to break into tears tomorrow at work. losing one of my officemates to another office, losing the nice office for the not great office, knowing that would be different if i had my old boss (pastor's wife), stuff with one niece, stuff with the other niece, immediately followed by (since i'm listening to deathly hallows) fred's death, pastor's going away party, and now knowing that i'll be looking for another church. just too much. and tomorrow i'll listen to the end of dh, which means neville, which means i get teary, which means, in this state, i'll probably start crying.
posted by melilotnfosco | 9:57 PM
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Definitely sounds cry-worthy. I'll be praying.
If you're up for talking about it, I'd love to know why you need to change churches. (Here or a message or even (gasp!) I could call you on the phone! :) that is, if you want to talk. I totally get it if you don't.)
i'm fine today. :) but then, i didn't listen to the end of dh. ;)
i've been thinking about changing churches for quite awhile. i love this church, but there's just no place for me there. they're very family-oriented, which is great, but leads to service opportunities being things like teaching sunday school or leading awana. there's no place for me to serve. and i need that. i think that's something that has very much been missing from my life.
also, while i never quite felt part of the group of young singles (i think that's just something that will always be the case), at least there were some. there are very few singles left (over the age of 24), which again, leaves no place for me. i feel very much an outsider. i'd like to have some friends; someone i can call up to go for coffee or go for a walk or something. also, while it's not a major reason, there is a part of me that knows that the only way to find a man is to be where men are, and that's not at this church.
i wasn't sure how to leave this church, though, as the pastor's wife has been so good to me. by this winter, though, i was really feeling it was time to move on. i started occasionally going to my wed night church on sundays (though i don't think that's where i'll end up), but still didn't know how to leave my sunday one. then in may they announced that my pastor would be leaving our church as of august 1st. i decided that would be a good breaking-off point. i still have one more sunday in nursery, but then that'll be it.
it's sad, cuz it is a good church, and it feels like the church i grew up in, which i like, but it's time.
it's also sad, because church-hunting is a bear.
and thank you for the prayers :)
Argh it's all kinds of events and transitions happening at once AND revisiting the end of a saga. Those seem like valid, understandable, and long-contemplated reasons for leaving. It's a tough thing but we'll pray for you to find another place soon that will be right for you. HUGS!
thanks :)
Somehow I feel you. Can't necessarily pinpoint why though. Hey. Do they have an American Girls store there? If so, maybe I should move there.
(Then you'd have a friend to go on a walk with!)
you should move here. we do have an american girl store, though i know not what that has to do with anything.
Do you know now? :)
yes. please come. :)
I insist that crying is good for you. God uses it to make us feel better. There is a chemical that is released that actually improves our mood. I am not a huge crier in my every day life, but I opt to put in sad movies as often as possible so I can cry...
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