my day

after not being able to fall asleep or stay asleep last night, it was a very difficult decision whether or not to go to church. i was so tired and headachey. but i skipped last week, so i figured i better go (just later than my usual late). i went, came home, and let myself rest/sleep for about 45 minutes. i then got up and ate a bagel, some cheese, and a banana. i continued to be tired, but i didn't dare let myself sleep longer cuz i need to be able to sleep tonight.
so i went through the afternoon, and at about 4:00 i noticed i had something on my shirt. i could not figure out for the life of me what it was. i checked and my nose wasn't bleeding. i checked and didn't find any other wounds on me. it didn't really look like blood, but i couldn't figure out what else it was as i hadn't eaten anything drippy. i racked my brains. had i? no, nothing. so i sniffed it, and it smelled like soy sauce. why would it smell like soy sauce? i hadn't eaten rice. oh my gosh, had i eaten rice? had i eaten rice while having a seizure, so i just didn't know? i was awfully tired. the kind where i start to be careful just in case, cuz i don't want to have one. i started panicking. i can tell when i've had a seizure, though, and i didn't remember having one. oh my gosh, am i that sick? i haven't felt the best the last couple of days. am i sick and not knowing what day is what? is it a different day from when i ate the bagel and i don't remember and i've eaten a different meal since then? oh my gosh! totally freaking out. i debated going and asking my mom if i had eaten rice, but then i wondered if i should be getting up. should i lay down? oh my gosh. what is going on?!
but then, as i thought of my mother, i remembered that she had made meatballs. i had put them in the fridge about an hour before. it was meatball juice. thank the dear Lord.