something i've discovered about me
i think i'm afraid of commitment. i'm not afraid of committing to something necessarily, i'm just afraid of committing against everything else. a 'if i do this, i can't do that' type thing. and since there's nothing i'm 100% sure of in schooling, work, ministry, or men, i'm terrified to try anything, because what if something better comes along. however, if i live without trying anything, i'm stuck in the same rut, bored, so i know this is something i have to get over. i'm sure it doesn't help that the one thing i was committed to for almost ten years (speech pathology) ended up not being the thing for me. i think also the fact that i take commitment so seriously probably makes me freak out a bit more than the average person. i don't know. if you want something to pray for for me, i think that's my current issue.
posted by melilotnfosco | 8:32 PM
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this is why you always end up with nonbuyers remorse, remember?
ha - i guess you're probably right
If you go through life that way, you'll never do anything interesting. So what if you miss out on something else. It's better than doing nothing. But you know that.
And you also know that I am not of the "God has a very very specific itinerary for my life and will be angry if I don't somehow figure it out" persuasion. I guess you need to figure out if you are.
i don't think HE'll be angry with me if i don't figure it out. i just wish there was something i was sold on. because as it is, there are things that i'll have to decide on at some point, and i really don't want to (at least i don't want to commit to them - veto-ing isn't so hard), because what if?
Triple once said to me that if it's God's will, I can run the other way and it will still happen. She was talking about boys. But maybe it applies to other things too? In other words, no need to worry.
I do realize that's easier to say/believe than to put into action though. I have such a problem with that action step. Across the board.
so you're saying i'm free to run away from everything right now? ;)
I totally don't agree that if it's God's will a guy will chase you even if you run. That's saying a lot about the guy and a god that would turn a guy into a total creep. I think girls have to be an active part in the courage required of the situation. It's not just about the guy.
Being sold on something is highly overrated. I don't know that I've ever really been sold on something -there are always doubts! But I figure that life is boring if I don't try things and stretch myself. Granted some things are not for just "trying," and then there is lots of thinking and praying to be done. But it's always a gamble.
that's what i'm saying - i need to learn to try stuff to unbored my life a litte, and i need to learn that there's not necessarily going to be anything better coming along, so i may as well take advantage of opportunities when they arise.
Yes!!
but with enthusiasm! ;)
fear and trepidation are more my style ;)
I think the point was that God's bigger than us and our mistakes. If He really wants something to happen in our lives, He can make it happen even in spite of us. We don't have to worry so much about what we do or don't do (I definitely don't think she meant that was an excuse to do nothing -- it was when I was worried about doing things wrong). And that wasn't my point, mel. :P But you know that. My point was that, if you choose something, no need to worry about what you didn't choose, because if God REALLY wants you to do something else, He'll open doors to that and show you.
I'm pretty indecisive about things too. The only thing I'm completely certain about is the truth of the Word of God. I think I've mentioned that before, that as much as I doubt everything, I don't doubt that. Or at least not really. Which is saying something. :)
good job, chelley. like i've said before, being "in God's will" is kind of like letting kids play. i don't really care if they're playing barbies or legos. if, however, they want to play in the street, i'll stop them. or if, for some reason, there is a specific reason i want them to play monopoly instead, i'll lead them to that. but for the most part, it's their choice what they want to play.
God gives you free will and you have the freedom to choose. but He wants you to choose. He doesn't want you to sit and do nothing. if there's something specific He wants you to do, He'll make that very clear - like offer a job out of nowhere. if you're heading out of His will, He'll make that clear, too. but never forget that He will be with you no matter what path you take.
II samuel 7:3
Nathan replied to the king, “Whatever you have in mind, go ahead and do it, for the Lord is with you.”
GO AHEAD AND DO IT
FOR THE LORD IS WITH YOU
i don't think that's meant to be taken recklessly, but if it's something you've prayed about and haven't received a no, then i think that's a green light
Ooh, great verse! :) (But also, yes, one I could get confused about;)
I just thought of something else: there is no need to worry because whatever you miss out on here on Earth you will experience tenfold (well, more than that) in Heaven. We have many desires, interests, etc. for a reason, I think.
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