just realized something
this is my depressed time of year. no wonder i'm down.
a friend of mine's status is that she just started doing her Christmas cards. i stopped doing Christmas cards a couple years ago because i thought that always made me depressed. it was just a reminder of all the people who are not in my life anymore and a realization of how many people i care more about than they care about me. sadly, i don't think that has solved all my problems.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GPG3zSgm_Qo :50-1:30
i hear ya. (even if i do know the linus part.)
this time of year just plain is way too hard.
a friend of mine's status is that she just started doing her Christmas cards. i stopped doing Christmas cards a couple years ago because i thought that always made me depressed. it was just a reminder of all the people who are not in my life anymore and a realization of how many people i care more about than they care about me. sadly, i don't think that has solved all my problems.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GPG3zSgm_Qo :50-1:30
i hear ya. (even if i do know the linus part.)
this time of year just plain is way too hard.
posted by melilotnfosco | 10:34 PM
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which, yes, blah blah blah, means i should try to be delightful at work because many of the old people are probably feeling the same way, and besides that would probably make me feel better, blah blah blah.
but you know what? i have plom's, and kimberly once told me that that's okay, because sometimes that's a real thing. so there.
this is a crappy time of year and i'm free to not like it.
not everybody feels joyful at Christmastime. joseph didn't either. i think that means that it's okay.
I don't think you need to pretend to be happy. I will pray that you find some joy this season. But the truth is, the holidays are really hard sometimes. And I think it's okay to admit that. Actually, no, it's a good thing to admit that.
I've realized, by the way, that I get really down AFTER the holidays. I keep myself busy during the time of chaos, but afterwards, I crash.
the thing is, like charlie brown, i like all the Christmas stuff. i like presents and cards and happy lights and Christmas music and nativity scenes and all that, but the season always makes me depressed. maybe it's just that here at the close of another year my life is just as pathetic as it was last year with again no hope of it changing in the next year. i get like this a little in october, too, as i still see september as the real start of the year (cuz that's when school starts), and by october i always thought life would be different and it never is. also sad because fall is my favorite season. none of it makes any sense.
well, i guess it can be a reminder at Christmastime that we need Jesus? but yeah, i'm not always fond of the holidays either, and in my family not a lot of people are because we've lost a lot of people around the holidays :(
I had forgotten all about ploms! I still agree that sometimes it's warrented.
I've been feeling a little down lately too as I realize how busy other people are at this time of the year, and how things with my family mean that we're not.
It's hard to see the holes.
i'm sorry. i wish it was different.
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