my emotional progress - pt. 2

after writing that post last night, i headed for bed. and while i was getting ready, i suddenly burst into tears. i cried about everything, even about how ugly i was going to look this morning after crying for so long last night. i told GOD again how hard it is for me to trust that HE would give me a man or a job or other things HE hasn't provided. and i was thinking about the fact that the healing i was hoping for in february hasn't come yet. i kept crying.
and then i remembered that tears you cry when you're sad release endorphins. and was comforted. GOD did that. HE knew that when we'd be sad, we'd need our spirits lifted. and so HE figured out a way to make that happen. it's amazing really. HE never said we'd be happy while we were here. and HE may never provide any of the things i think i want, but HE gave me tears, and the healing power they possess. GOD, in HIS infinite goodness and wisdom, gave me tears. Dayenu