day four of vacation

today was even nicer outside. so i went out to read and i swear the same [insert naughty word here] bee came and hovered around me. i'm sick of it! all i want to do is get out and enjoy GOD's wonderful creation before winter comes and i get trapped inside for 6 months, but no, this one inch creature is controlling my life! speaking of controlling my life, my stupid dummy brother, for whom i took this week off of work, has decided that it's not worth getting together this week cuz he's coming to paint the house this weekend with my dad. hello! i have plans this weekend. and hello, i took time off so i could spend time with you and you can't even give me a flippin' afternoon!?! ugh! last time i ever let anyone control what i do. all the plans i ever make hinge on someone else. and then something always happens with the someone else, and i'm left frustrated cuz i don't do anything. screw the world! i'm doing stuff alone from now on! (oh, except going on that road trip to a twins game with you next year didder.)