today was actually better than i thought it would be, because yes, things do get tougher when we try to change. but i think that's one of the problems we have. we try to change. that will never ever work. we have to let HIM change us. actually that was one of the things they tried to hammer home to us in Bible school, 'stop trying to live for JESUS...let HIM live through you.' ('let' being the key word there.) 'letting' is the only part that's our responsibility. HE will do the rest.