to quote me:
Sept. 11 2011
"i was also hoping to get some kind of clue as to what to do when i grow up. after six years stuck in a job that is below my skill level, i would have hoped to have some clue where to go or what to do. but no. anything i'm interested in still isn't a real job. so i vented that at HIM. and begged HIM to show me something, anything. any sign of what to do. but all i got was a feeling that i'll never know until i go to the place where my passion for words lies, namely england, and, because of my tolkien affinities, oxford, england at that. whether that's me or GOD, i don't know..."
Jan. 15, 2012
"I have to go to england. i don't know when or how or why or what for, but i feel like i have to. darn the olympics being there this year. although really, i don't know how i'd manage it anyway. part of me feels like i have to go alone, which scares me considerably, especially when at this point, the only way i can see is as a tourist, which leaves me with no one (unlike if i were to go for school or something so i could meet someone there). part of me also feels, though, like it should be for a long time, which would mean giving up a job and not being able to find one when i get back. darn the whole thing."
Sept. 11, 2012
"i still feel like i'm not going to know who i am or have any idea what to do with myself until i go to england. preferably for a year or more, but even a month or two would be nice. england and wales. england to see all the sites and see where my family's from and visit oxford and tolkien's grave. wales to wander the rolling hills and sit by the water and think or write...finding a man over there could be an added bonus, but that's not why i want to go. i want to go to find myself."
"i was also hoping to get some kind of clue as to what to do when i grow up. after six years stuck in a job that is below my skill level, i would have hoped to have some clue where to go or what to do. but no. anything i'm interested in still isn't a real job. so i vented that at HIM. and begged HIM to show me something, anything. any sign of what to do. but all i got was a feeling that i'll never know until i go to the place where my passion for words lies, namely england, and, because of my tolkien affinities, oxford, england at that. whether that's me or GOD, i don't know..."
Jan. 15, 2012
"I have to go to england. i don't know when or how or why or what for, but i feel like i have to. darn the olympics being there this year. although really, i don't know how i'd manage it anyway. part of me feels like i have to go alone, which scares me considerably, especially when at this point, the only way i can see is as a tourist, which leaves me with no one (unlike if i were to go for school or something so i could meet someone there). part of me also feels, though, like it should be for a long time, which would mean giving up a job and not being able to find one when i get back. darn the whole thing."
Sept. 11, 2012
"i still feel like i'm not going to know who i am or have any idea what to do with myself until i go to england. preferably for a year or more, but even a month or two would be nice. england and wales. england to see all the sites and see where my family's from and visit oxford and tolkien's grave. wales to wander the rolling hills and sit by the water and think or write...finding a man over there could be an added bonus, but that's not why i want to go. i want to go to find myself."
posted by melilotnfosco | 6:05 PM
2 Comments:
I love this. And I can't wait to hear ALL about the whole trip when you get back!!!
God is good. :) And I can't wait either! After reading that, I feel lucky you're not staying even longer! ;)
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