so now what?
i'm free. really and truly free. except that i need an income, as my parents, brother, and i are now down to one, and job-hunting stinks and jobs are hard to come by. but my car's paid off. and i do have some savings. and i'm so happy to be done with that...well, he's out of my life now. no sense saying the things about him that i've been thinking and saying for the last eight months. i'll miss some people - some staff and residents. but oh well. i feel like i'm breathing toxin-free air for the first time in months.
so now what? i don't know. i'll have to job-hunt, but i'm also going to look into going to school for medical records. (k, just looked and i wouldn't be able to start a program til august. hopefully i'll have a job before then.) also, i'm planning on more Bible reading and prayer time, hopefully exercising, maybe writing those lotr essays of mine, perhaps learning more swedish. i have big plans for my time off.
so now what? i don't know. i'll have to job-hunt, but i'm also going to look into going to school for medical records. (k, just looked and i wouldn't be able to start a program til august. hopefully i'll have a job before then.) also, i'm planning on more Bible reading and prayer time, hopefully exercising, maybe writing those lotr essays of mine, perhaps learning more swedish. i have big plans for my time off.
posted by melilotnfosco | 9:55 PM
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oh, one added prayer request to the assumed 'direction and a job' one - with my mom also out of a job, that's a lot of me and mom home together time. please pray that we get along.
will do! (pray) also, i'm very excited about this... i know, easy for me to say. i will definitely be praying, but i'm hopeful for you. :)
i'm glad you got to see cook before you left
good point, did. i am, too.
and thank you, chelley. :)
That is wonderful news!!! !!!!
I'll be praying.
...and Facebook didn't show that there were more comments and now I'm somewhat more caught up. How are you doing with things? Did you know it was coming? Are you thankful that something happened?
I was so hoping you would get an "I quit!" moment, but I'm excited by the doors and windows that you will see, for the exciting adventures that you will grab hold of!
Praying
oh- and a thought- perhaps it would be good to set a routine for yourself of getting out of the house everyday- for a walk or a trip to the library so that you and your mom get some predictable time apart.
I'm reading a book right now that I don't really subscribe to completely, but there are some good ideas in it. Anyway, one of the recommendations was to figure out two things to do every day. Two things on your to-do list, and you have to accomplish them by 11 a.m. I feel like that's doable, I like that it's just one or two things. I put it into practice today, thought of two things last night that I really want to get done today. One was to call two CC members, and the other was to send an email to another SLP, figuring out how to attach an audio file to it of one of my students. I accomplished the first half, but now I need to get ready for something else this afternoon. I may have been more successful if I had set my alarm -- I woke up at 10:30! But anyway, it's a start! (Just thought it sort of went along with what Kimberly was saying. For you, it may be writing a certain portion of an essay or something -- something that can be done in one day.) ... This does not come naturally to me; procrastination does!!
That was a little bit off-topic, sorry. It started out related in my head anyway. :) You know how that goes, right?
When I saw your post "free at last" I thought you just meant for the weekend! I didn't think you were out of a job!! Wow! What exactly happened?
And also...sometimes God wants us to take a step and then He moves us. So good for you!
i've said all along that he was trying to get me to quit. he must've finally seen that it wasn't going to happen, so he decided to do something about it. basically at the end of the day he asked to see me, i stood in the doorway of his office seeing if i needed to get someone to witness our conversation, and he said, 'today's your last day. here's a check. when you're done getting what you need out of your office, give me the keys.' i said, 'can i ask why?' he said, 'i've decided to go in a different direction. someone's going to come in who will be taking on some of my administrative and some hr duties.' i said, 'what about medical records?' 'we'll have to figure that out as we go. if you ever need a reference, let me know.' and that was that.
i understand waiting til the end of the day, so i don't bad-mouth him to residents or staff, but it felt a little strange to not get to say good-bye to the kitchen staff, or one of the nurses (who's as close as the kitchen staff) because the kitchen people were gone and that nurse didn't work yesterday. i just walked out and that was that. i was nice enough to give them my password so they could get into the documents they'll need, since i have no intention of answering questions if they call and ask. they could've asked while i was on the clock. i did call the asst DON last night to ask her to give the door code to one of the family members (who i had been given permission to give the code to but hadn't seen) because she's so frail i don't want her stuck outside if no one's at the desk to buzz her in, but now i'm done there.
kimberly - it kind of came out of the blue. i'm thankful something happened, though. he and i needed to be done with one another. we hated each other before i started working for him. it needed to be over. the only thing holding me back was that i need a job, so that's the one thing that will be stressful (not at the stressed about it point yet).
being done there will be good for my physical, spiritual, and emotional health; i can already feel that, so that's exciting.
and scheduled time out of the house every day is a good idea. not just to get away from my mom, but also to not become a hermit and to maybe wear something other than jammie pants.
and chelley (this is a lot of talking i'm doing here right now) - that wasn't off-topic. you're giving me advice as to how to not become a lazy bum deadbeat. i had already been thinking i'm going to have to structure my days. currently i'm thinking an hour of writing, followed by two hours of job search, about an hour of exercise, shower, lunch, Bible study and prayer, a half hour or so of swedish practice, and we'll see after that. i'm going to have to start with cleaning my room before all this, though. that and my closet and drawers and all that. those things got neglected when i worked full-time. although even that, considering i'm such a slow, procrastinating cleaner, i think i'm going to have to schedule that in there. perhaps start the days with that and write later in the day til all that cleaning is done.
I'm so happy for you to be out of that environment. It was suffocating you and we all wished you didn't have to be in it any more. But as you said, you couldn't just up and leave so an outside force had to remove you from that. It reminds me of Jonah trying to run away from God's calling for him. God had His way in the end ;-)
We will pray so hard for you to have some direction AND for you to end up with a job that is financially as well as emotionally satisfying!
Mel, I'm sorry I didn't get over here sooner. I think what I want to say is congratulations! I mean, it sucks to have lost your job and I will definitely pray for you to find a new one, for God's provision in the mean time, and for peace in your house while you are home with your mom. But it sounds like this could be a really good thing - and maybe something you've needed for a while. So - congratulations! I have no doubt at all that God has something amazing planned for you, and I can't wait to read about the journey He's getting ready to take you on!
thank you so much :)
Wow...that was a rude way to do it though. But I am glad you are done.
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