my prayer retreat - pt. 3

also, while there, i did pray about the school/job situation. like i've said, this is the logical breaking point for me. this is a time when i can consider going back to school, getting a new job, perhaps do missions. i don't want to waste it. but i don't know what i want to do. and so i lifted it up to HIM, telling HIM i'm afraid of committing to something that i don't feel gung-ho about, and that i want to be available if something else comes up. and truly, HE gave me a peace about schooling (now i have to get my butt in gear figuring out what school). basically HE said do it, and I'll let you know if there's something else you should be doing. start it, and if something comes up in a year that you feel sold on, quit and do that instead. maybe you can even fulfil your dream of being a  professional student and once you get this practical schooling under your belt and get a job in that, you can go to school for something you want to do, and either do that or if that doesn't work, you can keep your day job. be proactive in getting out of where you are now (if nothing else so you can feel better about yourself), then who knows? maybe you can get that master's in tolkien studies after all. that was also a really good thing to come home with.