i'm lost
on my prayer retreat, i felt like GOD was confirming that i should go to school to be a health unit coordinator, reassuring me that i had nothing to lose, so i should go for it.
i finally got around to looking for programs. there are two around here. neither one has evening classes, and while one has classes on saturdays, that program is for both fridays and saturdays. i cannot attend either of these schools with my current job. and yet i'm no closer to finding a different job. so there is something to lose. and i don't care enough about the field to feel led to give up an income and go to school. if it was something i cared about or something that would definitely lead to a job at the end, sure. but as it is, no.
and now i feel more like a lost puppy than i did before. i don't get it, GOD.
i finally got around to looking for programs. there are two around here. neither one has evening classes, and while one has classes on saturdays, that program is for both fridays and saturdays. i cannot attend either of these schools with my current job. and yet i'm no closer to finding a different job. so there is something to lose. and i don't care enough about the field to feel led to give up an income and go to school. if it was something i cared about or something that would definitely lead to a job at the end, sure. but as it is, no.
and now i feel more like a lost puppy than i did before. i don't get it, GOD.
posted by melilotnfosco | 7:49 PM
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hmm...i wish i knew what to say. maybe God wants your heart and your trust and your willingness to obey. He'll open the doors in His time.
That's what I'm working on (what HS said). But it's not easy... :(
And I agree with HS about the other thing too, not sure what to say and don't know the answer. :( I will pray though, if that's anything.
that's the most
Praying as well.
What was it Sister Maria said? "When God closes a door, somewhere He opens a window."
I'll be praying you figure out your window.
I'll add though, that God is rarely a God of convenience.
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