distraction at church

our bass player is woo-woo. i try not to be distracted by him, but sometimes, well, there's nothing for it. he's woo-woo. today, however, i was distracted by a different thought. i've thought for awhile that he needs a haircut, but today i thought, 'hm...with long hair and a beard and all, some people might say he looks like JESUS. but i don't think he does. he's too young [21ish], his hair is too light, and he's too woo-woo. hm...maybe he looks like a disciple instead of JESUS. i wonder which one. andrew. maybe he looks like andrew. peter definitely wasn't that young and pretty, and he's not a son of thunder. andrew has always seemed like the little brother to me. hm...i wonder what andrew was like. he wasn't one of the inner circle, but i bet that didn't bother him. he was used to being the little brother. if he hung out with peter and the sons of zebedee, who i've always thought were peter's age, not andrew's, he would've been used to them doing things without him. i wonder what zebedee was like, what he thought about his boys running off and becoming disciples. people don't name their sons zebedee. and i still wonder about peter's wife. i mean, how do you just be married to peter? we don't know about the others, but peter definitely had a wife. i wonder how she and andrew got along. i wonder if while peter was out being peter, andrew was more sensitive and actually checked up on her once in awhile. i wonder if he ever apologized to her for introducing him to JESUS. not that he would ever apologize for introducing someone to JESUS, but if he ever told her he was sorry that her life was suddenly so topsy-turvy. just a 'i'm sorry we're gone all the time, and the synagogue doesn't like us anymore, and all that, but it's worth it. he's the MESSIAH! i mean, how amazing is this? what an awesome thing to be a part of! yeah, your life will never be the same, but just think of it. your life will never be the same!' i wonder if andrew ever got married. i don't see him as married at the time. maybe he was. but i don't see him as ever getting married. and what about the other guys? i wonder if any of them were married. or if any of them had kids. i wish i could know more about them. someone should write a novel about andrew. but that's a huge undertaking, what with research of the time period and culture, and not wanting to be sacreligious and all that. but the book i'm reading about writing says to write down every idea you have, and not rule out any possibilities. and it says that research counts as writing time. but i don't want to write about andrew. but someone should. i've always liked andrew. i think, if i remember right, that that was one of the chapters i cried at in 'twelve ordinary men.' i know i cried in the thomas chapter. i like andrew. he's always seemed more introverted, and he's always seemed to have such a strong faith. hm...oh, the song's over now and we're going to pray. i suppose i should stop looking at the bass player.'