Practical thoughts
Grandma Brandybuck had a stroke on Thursday and won't be with us much longer. Really, I'm doing okay with it. She has dementia, and the Grandma I grew up with has been gone for awhile now. I've done my grieving. That doesn't mean it's not sad now, it just means that I've already accepted the loss, and being a very matter-of-fact person, I can be very matter-of-fact about it. She has lived a full life and for the last 10 years she's wanted nothing more than to go Home. Not being one who likes things to be drawn out, I hope HE takes her Home soon.
Also, to be perfectly honest, as a practical person, I would like her to go soon so that I don't regret not going to Tacoma. See, I was supposed to leave to visit Uncle Cocoa and Aunt Dairy Princess on Monday. Those plans have now gone caput, as Cocoa is here and the Dairy Princess will be coming when Grandma dies. They have said I'm welcome to go out there still, and then if she goes, we'll just all come back together, but if she dies while I'm on my way out there it would be pointless for me to get there just to turn around and come back. But if she lingers til Friday or something, I'll be disappointed to have missed out on going out there for the Twins game. As it stands it'll cost $150 to change my plane tickets, I'll have lost $110 on the Twins tickets I'm not using, and if I don't get to go, I still want to go somewhere, which would probably be Kansas City, which would be another $100 at least. Which brings us to $360. Which was the price of my plane tickets in the first place. So I could just go out there, go to the game, and come back, and then buy tickets to go out there for real sometime later on and I wouldn't lose any more money than I'm already losing. But not knowing about Grandma, I'm just not comfortable with that. So to be perfectly, horribly, selfishly honest, I really want Grandma to go tonight or tomorrow before I get home from work. It would make this decision so much easier.
Also, to be perfectly honest, as a practical person, I would like her to go soon so that I don't regret not going to Tacoma. See, I was supposed to leave to visit Uncle Cocoa and Aunt Dairy Princess on Monday. Those plans have now gone caput, as Cocoa is here and the Dairy Princess will be coming when Grandma dies. They have said I'm welcome to go out there still, and then if she goes, we'll just all come back together, but if she dies while I'm on my way out there it would be pointless for me to get there just to turn around and come back. But if she lingers til Friday or something, I'll be disappointed to have missed out on going out there for the Twins game. As it stands it'll cost $150 to change my plane tickets, I'll have lost $110 on the Twins tickets I'm not using, and if I don't get to go, I still want to go somewhere, which would probably be Kansas City, which would be another $100 at least. Which brings us to $360. Which was the price of my plane tickets in the first place. So I could just go out there, go to the game, and come back, and then buy tickets to go out there for real sometime later on and I wouldn't lose any more money than I'm already losing. But not knowing about Grandma, I'm just not comfortable with that. So to be perfectly, horribly, selfishly honest, I really want Grandma to go tonight or tomorrow before I get home from work. It would make this decision so much easier.
posted by melilotnfosco | 7:51 PM
2 Comments:
Ugh, what an awful feeling. Sorry. :(
oh, but happy news - the website said $75 per ticket, so i thought $150, but it meant per roundtrip ticket, so it's $75 total. that's a little better anyway.
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