i'm attractive

leastways that's what i hear.

k, so the story that goes with that:

at work we are constantly getting nurses and nursing assistants from a pool cuz ours either don't show up or quit. (we've had so much turn over lately. it's awful.) it's to the point where i almost recognize the pool people more than our own. and of course, there's this one nurse (actually he's done both), who all we girls and women think should be permanent. he is so stinkin' hot. one of the ladies in the kitchen says he kinda looks like l.l. cool j, and i guess that's the best comparison i can think of.

anyway, so every weekend especially (cuz that's when we younger girls work together), we just pray that he'll show up. actually when i walked into work this morning i thought 'hey, i want to see him. he should be here.' but then i thought 'oh no, cuz if he's here now, then he'll be leaving at 6:30 and we wouldn't want that. hopefully he'll be here for the day shift.'

went through the morning, lalala, nothing. then at 10:30, he comes in to get water for the residents! yay!!! and of course he's all woo-woo and flirty. so at lunch time, noble girl that i am i volunteer to take the food carts upstairs just to see if i can get a smile and a 'hi.' i also had to ask about one of our residents who eats downstairs cuz she wasn't there yet. apparently she was ready, but was in her room, so i said i would go get her and bring her down.

so woo-woo guy follows me into her room and we joke around a bit while she gets up and moving. and then, thankfully she's not fully with it, cuz he starts in telling me that i'm attractive and he likes my dimples, and i'm slim (he don't want no fat woman), and asking me if i have a boyfriend and all that. i decided this wasn't the time to tell him about elijah, so i said no, and then he asks me if i want a boyfriend! i told him that was a very leading question, and he said he doesn't want a girlfriend. he wants to make some money first so he can afford having a good girlfriend. i told him it sounded like he's looking for a car. so he said no, but i would be the kind of girl he would want 'attractive, hard-working, with those dimples, and slim.' and then he asked for my number and i said, 'i don't even know you!' and he said, 'that's how you get to know someone!' and so i hustled the resident out of her room and downstairs.

my gosh! what's going on here! this doesn't happen to me! i panicked. what was i supposed to do? i just ran downstairs and told the other people in the kitchen. they laughed at me and told me i was crazy for not giving him my number. the cook just shook his head and told me he felt sorry for me.

but yeah, there are a bunch of reasons not to. one- totally have no experience with any of this. two- he's hot, so i have even less experience with it. three- i don't know him at all. four- who starts a conversation with telling the girl she's attracive? totally makes me wonder what he's up to. and what if i was fat? would he not want to get to know me then? how shallow! here's an idea - see what the girl's into first. then see if you want her number. what if he called and we had nothing to talk about? i don't do well on the phone with people i don't know. ask my Bible study leader. five- he's a pool nurse. so does he have a girl in every port? if i went from nursing home to nursing home after him, would i find a long string of girls he's hit on?

ugh. i think i liked it better when i was unattractive.